It's been a week since I left the Brathay bubble, after completing 10 marathons in ten days. This is my final blog post. How do I begin as I sit in my house on this lovely Sunday morning, finding myself on my own for the first time in over two weeks, Ems has gone with Zak to football and given me a rest day, I am not sure if that's mentally or physically .
I am not sure how to sum up this experience except to say that, the whole experience has shifted my perspective and now I am back nothing looks or feels the same.
The title of the blog piece, is a thought I had when travelling up to Brathay prior to the 10 in 10, and it was this thought, when things get tough, I will need something to move me forward through the pain and frustration, I knew would at some point would engulf me, of course I have my family and friends, but then this thought came to me, by raising this money, all of the 10 in 10ers were and are giving the brathay trust the funds to in many ways save lives, to change lives.
We all know the power of positive leadership from parents and loved ones, and without it where would our lives perhaps be? I know for myself my parents and other significant others have shaped and in their own way, saved my life, or at least let me have informed choices that let me lead a great life and I feel this is what Brathay does for disadvantaged children and young adults.
I Couldn't Bear To Be Special
Words Are Trains For Moving Past Things That Have No Name
The past week I have had so many lovely comments and compliments, all amazed at what I have achieved, this has left me speechless, to be honest, don't get me wrong I am very proud of all that I have done, having only run 6 marathons prior to this event, I feel very proud to be a 10 in 10er, however I am no different from anyone else, in that, lots of what we feel is not possible, is just a belief, we have, it's not the reality , all those people who think what all 18 of us have done is superhuman, could do what we have done, or something similar.
For me this has been the biggest thing that has come from the 10 in 10 , what's the point in playing small in this life, cry, laugh, take a risk, tell someone how much you care, because this thing called life is way too short to be saving yourself for tomorrow.
Throughout the ten days, I have had some of the lowest moments in my life (day9) some of the highest, and in between really. I started to look forward to small things…..
- Soup at lunchtime, except one day when it nearly blew my head off!!!
- A warm shower after the ice bath.
- Some of us sitting in the bar after treatment with laptops and a pint just shooting the breeze.
- Bundling in Macks car, giving us all a lift back to Shackleton.
- The sandwich and tea mack gave me at16 miles on day 9.
- A look from Aly when I felt my world was falling apart that said you can do this.
- A text from Aly that I will treasure all my life
And sooo much more …….
Wave Hello Say Goodbye
So many people to thank, first of all to all my fellow 10 in 10ers thanks for all being great, and putting up with me, I know I can be a bit insular sometimes and you always gave me space I hope I did the same for you all too. I have been inspired by each and every one of you, the determination and guts, quite literally humbled me each and everyday, you are all heroes to me. A special mention for my roomy Keith Luxon, this man was the perfect roommate for me, cool collected, and even when he was having a bad day he always never passed it on to me or others, add to that a very dry sense of humour perfect- thank you Keith
Of course Aly and Mack, what can I say that has not been said about you two, all I can say and this might sound a bit soppy, but here goes, I felt truly loved and supported by you and I think every other runner would agree, it's the most amazing feeling to meet people that just believe in you, no questions asked, just believe in your ability to overcome and to be the best you can be, quite inspiring- thank you so much Aly and Mac
Thank you too , to all the family and friends that have supported me and donated, a special thanks to Warren Power who ran the Bognor 10k in my honour on last Sunday having not run before- you’re a legend mate! Plus all the past 10 in 10ers who came and supported and helped inspire me and keep me going, I hope to do the same for others perhaps next year if Aly and mack will let me.
The Body Rehab team without your skill and good humour I would not have made it , thank you so much for what you did, and for putting up with my grumpy moments on the treatment table with good grace and humour.
The many times you told me I was in good shape when I felt I was falling apart really did help raise my spirits- each and everyone of you deserve a medal, even if some of you made me cry like a baby with those elbows and sharp fingers!!
Thanks Martin for the fantastic videos and your good humour, I never said much but I was always pleased to see your happy face, your love for the 10 in 10 shines through in all you do. Hopefully my wife will stop stalking you now!!
So What's Next Lee?
That's been the question, and I just don't know, people ask would I do it again? Well when I finished last Sunday, I hugged Aly and said don't make me do this ever again! Luckily Martin was still filmingJeff, so this was never caught on film. All I can say is in two years I will be 50, who knows perhaps a run round the lakes might be in order, if they would have me again- thank god Ems never reads my blogs!
Who knows, what I do know whatever it is, my life will never be the same in many micro ways, and for that I am eternally grateful to the 10 in 10 and everyone involved.
Keep well and thanks for reading my Ramblings, remember, run happy, live happy and go that extra mile because life's just too short to be a spectator
There is still time to throw my some pennies at me for a fantastic cause